you are the reality of my dreams

...Passion Pit
akdnsndkwjkefnwergtj my heart breaks everytime i think about the life i used to have on here):
So I'm not a really a fan of instagram, but I made one for my polyvore sets- so follow me! http://instagram.com/perculsus Or tell me yours and I'll follow you!

Do not go gentle into that good night- Dylan Thomas
(featured in Matched by Ally Condie)
 
Happy Thanksgiving! :)

Cough Syrup//Young the Giant
 
I am in love this song, and this band :)
~
So... I haven't really been on in 4 months. Oops.
Well i have, I check once in a while, but no one does anything and I haven't made a set in ages.
 
I'm the same girl I was before, just more depressed and more confused and more stressed. But I'm still the same girl. I think.
 
I remember when I used to spill out all my problems into my sets. Pretty gutsy. I can't even imagine doing that now. I'm such a stranger to a place I once called my home. This is home but it seems like everything has changed. I have changed. I'll never forget where I came from but I think it's time to move on. You can't relive the past. no matter how hard you try. I love you all, whoever is still left in this place. I miss you all, need you all, want to talk to you all- but I know I can't. Nothing is the same anymore. We aren't little 12 year olds trying to distiguish themselves from everyone else. We've all gone our seperate ways, down different paths that will always lead back to this home. But will we ever look back? Maybe, maybe not. That's life.

ok so i start marching band on the 1st, and i wasn't really scared or nervous about it until i realized that IM GOING TO BE STARTING MARCHING BAND.
the first time we rehearsed i sucked okay like really bad and ugh im so scared now i still don't get how to do turns and there are no youtube videos on it ugh losers
and im leaving on sunday and coming back thursday so i have 4 days to prepare myself
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stupid child
idek if i need to bring my instrument the first day or what
i don't even have that thingy to hold my music
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i know marching bands arent all the same
but i read something about this one girl being sad about it because she doesn't want to have to run
wHAT
im going to cry
and all these posts on tumblr are basically complaining about everything especially about FRESHMAN not doing things right
GUYS THAT'S ME kshfnekjgrnkdegn
being in marching band is required to be in band
which doesn't make sense
what if i suck will i be removed or
thats ok if i am
no its not I HATE PE UGH
im going to be offbeat and i have terrible slides
nuvofowononstopppp
 
can anyone call me down before i have this huge meltdown omg
i just want to know how marching band camp really is like
is it really that bad and hard
is it
is it really? :''''(

Come Back Home // Two Door Cinema Club
 
hi.
if the editor forgets to get rid of the ugly crooked lines i will throw a fit
the amount of thought i put into this set is so grand that its pathetic.
 
i'm becoming more and more mute nowadays. i used to always answer to text messages and have my phone with me at all times, and now i hate texting and always leave my phone in my room because i just dont care anymore
sometimes i just need to think
alone
in silence
without having to worry about conversations that are going no where
 
im plowing through the fault in our stars like its my job
i like it
normally im not to big on romance books but it just works when john green does it
 
screw what everyone says, i think books are the best way to escape the world. so if you hate reading, have fun in this messed up world while i visit a much better one. unlike life that you can only live once, you can relive a book again and again..... so yeah /:
im going to go to that better world now and read.
bye bye

i'm so bored guys
well
i don't think i even told you guys about me liking doctor who
well
it's obvious now
well
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this didn't take very long- as you can tell by the poor quality of the set
ugh so much blue but i mean come on
it's not like i had a choice
 
bah i'm going back on tumblr
i don't care if i hit post limit again ok i'm just so bored and i'll get over it eventually
 
DOOOOWEEEEDOOOOOO
DOOOOOWEEEEEDOOOOO
DOOOOOWEEEEDOOOODOOOOWEEEDOOOO

Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind...
 
The Cave // Mumford & Sons
 
i'm so bored
i started this yesterday when i sadly reached post limit on tumblr omg ugh
it's not even funny
normally i'd just delete some posts as i go
but NO
apperently they've caught on to that and it doesn't work anymore
or i'd just post on my other blog
NOPE YOU CAN'T DO THAT ANYMORE EITHER
wELL EXCUSE ME
well since i haven't hit it since last summer- i should expect some differences
WHY THO :(
next time i won't start posting at like 5 in the morning
~bad choice
 
guys i actually got in some social life time
 
worst
decision
ever
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huge wake up call
ok
ready?
IM SO LAME
yep
no like i'm lamer than i thought i was
it's crazy
i've never felt so lame in my life
 
i'm going to die in highschool holy crap i'm not ready anymore no no no no
oh and if i have speech first semester i will cry
i can't even talk to people NORMALLY how do you think i can do it FOR A GRADE
 
my dad is being a poop and says i can't start learning how to drive until i'm 16
NO DAD WE CAN START AT 15 WHAT THE HECK
he's not going to let me adgbvfwsfjnwjkfngwjgl
lol i'm drowning in a sea of lame now
everyone will have their permits and this will be my life
http://image.shutterstock.com/display_pic_with_logo/185314/185314,1222535369,1/stock-photo-two-young-girls-jealous-18017263.jpg
 
and everyone seems to have dated at least once now
like what
HOW
it's like they were handing out free love samples but they ran out when i showed up and they refuse to go get me some more until the next day because now they have closed the store but then they went out of business and never opened up again
WELL FINE
 
anyways no more outside for me
it pushes my low self esteem into the negatives lol
i'll tie myself to my computer until marching band starts ok
until then not going back out ever again nope nope
 
oh and i can feel the not being at warped tour depression starting already
UGH IT'S TOMORROW AND I WON'T BE THERE
i'll probably never go until i'm 18, BUT WATCH THEM END IT FOR SOME REASON BY THEN OMG
that's something that would happen to me
 
ok byeeeeeee

In the background of the picture, was water running to the sea....
 
Pictures of People Taking Pictures by Jack Johnson
 
*sobs as she remembers last summer when everyone used to talk and be idiots and call band members and do other odd teenager things but now everyone has moved on to actually having a life but i miss old times on here SO MUCH*
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ha ha ha
i feel like theres a whole new community of poly peepz that are just as fun but i just can't find them
I REFUSE TO DELETE
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my results are here
my mother should be bringing me the news after work
wonder what they found wrong with me
cute
what if i'm dying
lol funneh
*laughs as she curls back up into the corner and ignores and hides the fact that she has all the signs of clinical depresson by pretending to be happy by singing happy jack johnson songs*
LIKE WAKING UP TOO EARLY
MAYBE WE CAN SLEEP IN
I'LL MAKE YOU BANANA PANCAKES
PRETENDING LIKE IT'S THE WEEKEND NOW
 
yak
yaki
yakim
YAKIMA

ok so my desktop background is the maine of course
 
so i decided to teach my sister their names
"ok who is that?"
"idk"
"garrett!"
"garrett..."
"who's that?"
"i don't know"
"john!"
"john...."
so we went through all of them a couple of times and then it was time for the quiz.
"where is kennedy?"
"that one!" *points at jared*
"noooo! but that's close!"
*points at the kennedy*
"yay! good job! where is pat?"
*points to pat*
"AKFNHKJRWRGNWRKJKR YES THAT'S CORRECT OMG. Where is John?"
*points at jared*
"omg no that's jared. THAT is john."
"where is garrett?"
*points at jared*
"NO THAT IS JARED. DDDDDDD. jareD. this- that is garreTT."
"where is kennedy?"
*points at pat*
"SKFJNRKJGN NO THAT'S PAT REMEMBER. this- that's kennedy."
"where's john"
*points at john*
"YES YOU ARE GETTING IT"
but my hopes were getting too high
 
"who is this" (pointing at garrett)
"carrot!!!"
"NO THAT'S GARRETT"
"who is this?" (pointing at jared)
"Jennedy!"
"what NO that's Jared!?!?!"
"ok come on you know who this is. who is this?" (pointing at pat)
"CRAT!!!"
"kasjfnwjkfnkwefnk what in the WORLD THAT'S PAT"
"ohh yeah pat"
i mean i would've taken rat
but crat
what is that
rat crap?
 
i can't stop laughing at jennedy though
guys we have a new otp
 
and garrett is a carrot
he's good for your eyes
YES YES THIS IS TRUE
 
but yeah the only one she really knows is john
TYPICAL NEW FANGIRL.

isn't it cute?
for a year i've been waiting for a shirt i actually like to be part of 5 dollar friday
BUT WHENEVER IT IS, I DON'T REMEMBER UNTIL SATURDAY AND IT'S JUST SO ANNOYING
but last week i actually remembered(:
yayayayayay
in case you guys want to know, this is today's 5 dollar deal:
http://www.fueledbyramen.com/news/5-friday-paramore-23261
i love paramore but the shovel as the rib cage lol no
 
and i also went to the bookstore today
I LOVE IT WHEN I GET BOOKS OVER THE SUMMER
is that weird
i get so excited
it's like christmas
i got:
Matched by Ally Condie- I loved it when i read the sample last year, but when i read some of it at school i didn't really like it, but i'm willing to give it another shot.
The Fault In Our Stars by John Green- the cashier said that i will bawl in this book. I didn't think John Green was that popular in the "real world"
Everfound by Neal Shusterman- I already read that book but i got it so i would have every book of the Skinjaker Trilogy just because i like having my own copy of books.
Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card- for summer reading. It was either this or a non-fiction book....
WELL DUH OF COURSE I'D PICK THE SCI-FI BOOK.
i just feel bad for those preps who hate non-fiction and sci-fi. or *sigh* don't even read at all.
SUCKERS(:
The Warrior Heir by Cinda Williams Chima- Idk.... I'm giving this book a chance because a lot of dudes have reconmended it. I say dudes because most girls are promoting Sarah Dessen books.
Which i might try one day. If you told me about her books the summer before 7th grade, i probably would've been all for it. But once i read Unwind i was taken away from the girly romance books 4eva :)
OMG CRAP IF FORGOT TO GET THE PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER
UGH
UGH
UGH
UGH
I KNEW I'D FORGET SOMETHING NOOO
poop -_-
 
i practiced the first time in two weeks today and it's either i sound really good or really bad.
*it is probably really bad*
i hate when that happens. when i don't practice for so long, the feel of everything seems new and odd
 
I WANT TO GO TO WARPED TOUR SO BAD
BUT NO
THEY ARE COMING ON MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY
AND NONE OF MY FRIENDS WOULD GO
AND MY PARENTS WOULD NEVER LET ME
 
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sensitive fangirl problems.
 
somedays i feel like i have adhd
like i can start off talking about cats and end talking about stds
idgi
ok ok ok ok im going now
byeeee :-----)